Mothers Day 2011

I am sitting here writing while my guys are out planting a Hydrangea bush for me. I have always wanted one. I remember one house we lived in when I was young had a lot of these BIG BLUE bushes around the house. I loved them. I loved watching the bumblebees buzz and carry on the life cycle!!!  Brings back very fond memories. My mom loved plants and flowers and we always had them wherever we lived.

Today though is my day now....and it is very special today because for the first time in 7 years, we are able to have a Mothers Day and not have angst and past hurts come out. Most every Mothers Day for me has been Hell to be quite honest. Boys would start about a week before literally regressing to a point of acting the way they did pre-Roses. It would usually culminate with a blow out on Mothers Day. I have been called every name in the book, been told to "F-you" and pretty much they would do everything they could to make it a miserable day. Some days had led to major rages.  As much as I knew in my "head" what was going on, my heart was aching that they couldn't see the love I had for them from day 1!!!  I WANTED what other mothers seemed to get and what we were taught to do for our mother. I wanted a card that GENUINELY said I love you and appreciate you. But it never happened. Until today....

Yesterday was a bust and I WAS DREADING today. Russ had talk after talk after talk about showing appreciation etc and it just didnt seem to click!! I decided to lower my expectations today...way lower than I EVER HAD and I woke up praying and asking the Lord to show me how to love them today DESPITE what they might say or do.

I heard rustling in the kitchen and they were cooking breakfast. Jason had gotten up early and got dressed so he could help Russ cook! Steven, the slow one, even got dressed pretty quickly. Breakfast was served, church happened with cheerful attitudes and then it happened.....we went to lunch (and you might not understand this unless you have a special kid or adopted kid)and....and....Jason actually picked up the basket of bread and handed it to me asking me to choose. He then proceeded to hand it out and took the last piece that I know he didnt like and ate it without complaining. In that moment, he became a man and didnt really know it!! This afternoon has been awesome. It has been easy. It has been full of love and care FOR ME!

. I am so happy to see some movement in maturity. Jason has been extremely mature this week. I realize we might have a set back this next week but today I AM CHERISHING the moment. TODAY, it has been about me and not about them. Today, they grew emotionally. Today, they bonded with me a little more.

WOW! God is good.

We also said goodbye to one of our favorite therapists. She has been with us for 5 years and have helped us build a family. She is one of the most awesome ladies we have ever met. If you live in Birmingham and need a good family or kid therapist, email me! We will be working with someone here in Montgomery who is closer. We will miss her greatly but know this is the direction we need to go.  

Peace along the way everyone! God is good all the time!